8. Prototype

oo8: P r o t o T y p e

created between spring of '05 and summer of '06

1| The Pulse of Infinity

2| Reaktor Aktivated

3| Against My Will

4| Transcendental

5| Con-Test Con-Tempt

6| Near-Life Experience

7| Neutral Zone Trap

8| Universal State

9| Endless Failed Opportunities

10| The Red Horseman

11| Con-Science Con-Sequence

1. The Pulse of Infinity

A star burns a new hole in the universe eventually

Vacuums up all the space around it oh so sickly

Will these prophecies be fulfilled?

Will the night sky keep you thrilled?

When it's over, will you overcome cosmic fear?

Can you allow your soul true salvation here?

I feel comfort when I think of living for eternity

But not when it means being a ghost of reality

My breed remains very exploratory

Not ashamed to tell the real story

Used to be a drought, now we're in a dynasty

The pulse of infinity connected to electricity

Compassion should not be looked down on

World waits for a chance to prove me wrong

Unite the circles within all of our eyes

Same shape as the planets you realize

Northern lights reflecting spirits of the past?

Is white noise what the dead voices cast?

2. Reactor Activated

So I see you like reading my mind

Can't see yours because I'm blind

They're anxious to taint the sacred

Instigators feed off their self-hatred

Are you jealous that you're not a chosen one?

It's lonely at the top when every level is done

I used to think this planet was tribal, trivial nonsense

But a soul can be sold, maybe to avoid consequence?

My depths are deep, trained by the train

My mind needs fitness, always hard to tame

Are you going to renew a subscription to group-think?

If you turn against me willingly, I'd gladly watch you sink

Reactor system has now been activated

They'll stand in front of me when I'm jaded

I wish some things would be filtered out of here

I wish I could stay inside a mode of seeing clear

3. Against My Will

When I remember what I don't want to see

The vulgar instincts kick in at a high degree

It's the pain of knowing how backwards things seem

Giving into the maze, allowing it to kill my self-esteem

Wishing I could put up a permanent wall

Where I'm not awkward and easy to fall

You can only see what I have shown

Laughs at me when my mind is blown

There is certain rituals that trigger episodes

A cameras eye visible when it overloads

We all face our obstacles alone

Most of them made by my own

These urges feel like brain damage

Toilet-head sorts through garbage

When you don't give a body what it needs

You're planting a tree from desperate seeds

4. Transcendental

I want to replace the nausea with freedom worldwide

Reclaim my soul, for I've seen the lie on the other-side

It all started with me looking at the sky wide-eyed

I wonder what happened when my mind died

I can feel my physical body begin to deteriorate

Still my spirit lives on, I've passed through a gate

Never wanted to see all this perverse confusion

Only obstacle remaining is the constant illusion

Give me a sign that there is life after death

So I'm not suffocating during my last breath

All your lies influence me to speak the truth

My response isn't opinion, it's factual proof

If I was on a level of difficulty it would be set at all-star

The mark I wear is like a reminder of an emotional scar

I see the people I was before I evolved

I'm watching the mysteries be unsolved

Allow the positive energy to destroy the doubt

At one with the universe, into the floor I melt

5. ConTest ConTempt

It's so easy to stain my memory maps

Tried my hardest to remove the straps

The more you try to just have a good time

The more they want you to feel like a crime

Don't want to sit back and see it

I want to step up and then feel it

It's so disheartening to be mind-raped everyday

So I try to instigate a fight against all of the decay

Once you've sent the signal, there's no turning back

The end result can be dismal, though you do not lack

I want to forget all the old lies I've tried to erase

By remembering the real instead of a disgrace

Once you've escaped the maze life is again live-able

Sometimes you have to explain yourself inside

Because you're forced to choose only one side

In silence our connection goes nowhere

Communication is like accepting a dare

If the injected fuel is too foul

The inner wolf will be on prowl

I give you free ammo then you shoot towards me

That's the way nature flows when you're in too deep

It can be hard to enjoy yourself

When your screen gets engulfed

There's no compensation for the rape I encounter

So I resort to contempt in the role of a seed-planter

This world will kick you when you're down

When you're winning, they make no sound

My wall is so strong when it breaks you're relieved

Your best chance against me is when I'm deceived

As the lady venom sinks in

You will see hallucinations

6. Near-Life Experience

I will evoke my darker half within

If your lies won't stop repeating

Once you have LSD eyes

You'll witness it synchronize

This is a randomized form of spirituality

A reaction to an unpredictable reality

I don't know where I will go when my body is gone

So while I'm here turn the machine from off to on

Lets remove the negative stigma

And appreciate another enigma

I wear the mark of the beast

Feels too close to deceased

I love giving you a rude awakening

Whenever you try to be frightening

I control your laughter and conversation

By broadcasting my own mental station

Untouchable when in humble composure

Sitting back ignoring all injected dangers

Time to thank the sky

For a very kind reply

Make your wish on a shooting star

For the imagination can go so far

7. Neutral Zone Trap

When my nightmares become realities

The government will have to pay me fees

Primal compulsions can be overbearing

Like a curse you never ever like wearing

A war between animal instincts and will

Sure could use a perfect self-control pill

I'll supply both sides of the story

For I'm half innocent, half gory

A schizophrenic maze

Creating harder days

Whenever I tried to remember her face

I was left with a twisted image in place

Memory starts to decay the older I get

And it feels like all-star skill level is set

I've been to the other-side and back

Authorized to tell about the train track

Need to break the cursive disgrace

To maintain the position of first place

You paid too much attention to my flaws

Almost as if violating the karmic laws

8. Universal State

I need eternal freedom after my eyes shut

An ideal destination instead of a rotting rut

This body conspires against me

Like a lingering physical enemy

Lets remove the negative vibes

And start a new revolution inside

Heal all of those you have broken

And worry not of what was spoken

Universal state equals number one

Cosmic reality, a futuristic version

People forget there's a universe out there

It's too bad we can't see it all in one stare

As long as I've got respect from the best

I can't even pay attention to the rest

9. Endless Failed Opportunities

These failed opportunities keep happening

Like a tease that ends in a dead-end tragedy

I'm the one who has waited the most

But they talk to me like I'm a ghost

They want you to be the one who initiates conversation

So give them what they want then turn to the real station

When the thing you want most is never attained

The tears are inevitably imprinted and stained

After a while you'll want to kill the entire game

For it gave you nothing but a sign without a name

They should approach me because I'm the most in need

Instead of nurturing those who always get to receive

I know when you walk away I'll never see you again

I wish you never let this happen, it's not my plan

If you really want me you'll come to me

And discover I can be the epitamy of free

10. The Red Horseman

You pressed the button in my head

So no remorse when you're dead

I'll bring war worldwide

With a sword by my side

The red horseman shall appear and be revealed

The safety of this unfair place no longer seal

I'll tell the sky about the lie

And hope the heartless die

This world's design has been poisoned

So universal law is sending us erosion

God doesn't approve of the virgins being raped

So he allows me retribution in this backwards place

When you try to break the broken

You'll realize they are the chosen

11. Con-Science Con-Sequence

They pumped me full of evil

So I'd be consumed three-fold

I'd rather not be down to earth

Instead lets go up to the universe

Sometimes we focus on the negative

Then forget about anything positive

I've paid the price for my many fatal errors

Now I seek protection from the gods in prayers

Everyday my spirituality is randomized

And I have no time for what's advertised

We'll always have a conscience consequence

But there's no use allowing it to kill confidence

I wish the taint would just go away

So I could feel pure for an entire day

Got too many fucking problems to mention

The karma of my past reckless dimension

Enhancements: Cannabis & Ecstacy